i went through the entire month of april without talking to you,
it felt shorter than i thought it'd be.
i thought i'd be begging and bargaining
for just another word, another glance
but i went through the entire month of april.
i thought i'd cry because you said that you'd check in
and you haven't
but i didn't, i went through the entire month of april.
i thought i'd be mourning the lack of your presence in my mind, i thought i'd be hiding from the memories of you,
but in reality, it's myself that i've been hiding from,
and i've been doing it for the entire month of april.
i thought i'd be yearning for your body, your warmth, your lips,
but i shudder at the thought,
my throat closes and my heart races in panic because i realized that i
never
want you to touch me again,
and i went through the entire month of april,
hating you, hating myself,
regretting and
cursing
and i'll go through every other month the same way.
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Love Hate & Everything in Between
Poetrywe all have those words. ones that are best left unsaid. ones that should be said, yet aren't. ones that ruin lives, and ones that save them. here are some such words. words of love words of hate and everything in between ~~~ im rewriting these fou...
